I know how you feel. I've been offline for 5 months til recently, and after a few weeks I began to realise I didn't really miss anywhere. My time away from offline passed, things happened. I got a new career, began new training... in my free time I went out more, I did things that made me happy. And it dawned on me. For a year or so beforehand I'd been thinking something was lacking from being online.
There were 2 places that meant oodles to me, being online - ChaoticMUX and ElephantMUD. I met my husband on Elephant, and I still go there. But, and it's the same with Chaotic, instead of being involved in conversations or gameplay, I find myself idle, or repetitavely typing who, or finger blah. On neither place now do I have the kinda magical experience I had before.
I'll always remember Chaotic at - to me - it's highest, when I was on for my first year and a bit. Iw was magical, it was full of welcoming people. I knew everyone, everyone knew me, everyone spoke to everyone else. Now, it's mostly in silence when I'm on, and I feel like an outsider. Now, I sit quietly, and discover that even now I've returned, few people on either place has missed me, or welcomed me back.
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I've been offline for 5 months til recently, and after a few weeks I began to realise I didn't really miss anywhere. My time away from offline passed, things happened. I got a new career, began new training... in my free time I went out more, I did things that made me happy. And it dawned on me. For a year or so beforehand I'd been thinking something was lacking from being online.
There were 2 places that meant oodles to me, being online - ChaoticMUX and ElephantMUD. I met my husband on Elephant, and I still go there. But, and it's the same with Chaotic, instead of being involved in conversations or gameplay, I find myself idle, or repetitavely typing who, or finger blah. On neither place now do I have the kinda magical experience I had before.
I'll always remember Chaotic at - to me - it's highest, when I was on for my first year and a bit. Iw was magical, it was full of welcoming people. I knew everyone, everyone knew me, everyone spoke to everyone else. Now, it's mostly in silence when I'm on, and I feel like an outsider. Now, I sit quietly, and discover that even now I've returned, few people on either place has missed me, or welcomed me back.