I do remember Ashes. I remember the entire story. It's all I could think of as we rushed Merlin to the vet was "please please god may I have not done the same thing as maly's ex did. Please please god may he live! May it just be a broken leg or something else!" Unfortunately, I knew once I stepped on him and pulled him from under the bed and saw how strange he was acting that it was not to be and I HAD killed him.
I could deal with the fact of him dying if it were "his time". Euthanasia doesn't bother me as such (only because the only experience I've had with it was to stop my poor 14 year old collie from suffering. He had fractured his hip bone and he couldn't walk anymore and he was pathetic and in pain and we all knew it. So we did what we knew was the right thing.. we put him out of his pain.). But he was a KITTEN! He was only 3 or 4 months old! He never GOT a chance to grow up! That's why I'm so upset! If he had been 15 or 16 and he'd lived a long and full and happy life, I would be dealing with it probably alot better. But he was 4 months old and though I know his life WAS happy, it was way too short.
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It's all I could think of as we rushed Merlin to the vet was "please please god may I have not done the same thing as maly's ex did. Please please god may he live! May it just be a broken leg or something else!"
Unfortunately, I knew once I stepped on him and pulled him from under the bed and saw how strange he was acting that it was not to be and I HAD killed him.
I could deal with the fact of him dying if it were "his time". Euthanasia doesn't bother me as such (only because the only experience I've had with it was to stop my poor 14 year old collie from suffering. He had fractured his hip bone and he couldn't walk anymore and he was pathetic and in pain and we all knew it. So we did what we knew was the right thing.. we put him out of his pain.). But he was a KITTEN! He was only 3 or 4 months old! He never GOT a chance to grow up! That's why I'm so upset!
If he had been 15 or 16 and he'd lived a long and full and happy life, I would be dealing with it probably alot better. But he was 4 months old and though I know his life WAS happy, it was way too short.