So the other shoe has dropped..

[hkellick]

You'll have to excuse me. This may be.. rambling. I have a LOT of thoughts and they may not all make sense together.

Pre-vaccination, I was a mountain of COVID anxiety. We went very few places, essentially lived at home... we did the right thing for ourselves, our family and those people in our family who likely wouldn't handle getting COVID.

K and I both got vaccinated days from each other. In fact, her second vaccine shot was the day before my second vaccine shot, but we didn't change our behaviors much because our son is 11 and it was everything to us to continue to protect him.

This was while Delta was in it's infancy.

Then the CDC said "Oh yeah, sure, take the masks off." and while that was a HELL OF A MISTAKE, we had the conversation. How do we feel about taking masks off? Kristen was more cautious than I. I was ready to take the masks off and live SOME SORT of new normality. Kristen was not.

Meanwhile, Delta happened and a lot of people, members of our community, family... well, the term COVIDiots is applicable. Stupid. Selfish. Awful. People who risked themselves and their family because they decided they knew better than the doctors. That frustrates and angers me. It angers me that so many people in America decide their personal freedom is more important than ours. Those people suck.

But I mostly let it go and it mostly didn't bother me because I thought our family was safe. We were vaccinated and R always wore a mask when outside. The CDC was saying "Those with the vaccine are less likely to get COVID, transmit COVID, or have symptoms of COVID." (https://www.cdc.gov/coronavirus/2019-ncov/science/science-briefs/fully-vaccinated-people.html) and thus I thought so long as we were smart, we were safe.

Until yesterday.

Because yesterday the CDC goes "Oh, yeah.. um.. those with vaccinations can still spread it."

So... I've been unknowingly endangering my own child because i hated wearing the mask and because it turns out the greatest doctors in the nation.. maybe aren't.

I've been on an emotional roller coaster since then. Partly mad at myself for not being as cautious as my wife. Very mad at others that I have no control of because it is maddening that we can't get enough needles in arms. And I am anxious again because i know the area well enough to know how many people in our social circles (family members, members of his troop, etc.) that don't take COVID seriously.

This is just... frustrating and anxiety making and it sucks.

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[kiwiria]

I totally understand you feeling this way, and IANAD but the information we've been given here in Denmark is that fully vaccinated people can still spread it, but they are much less likely too (at least with the vaccines given here - mostly Moderna and Pfizer). The mask mandate has been lifted here per last month, as more than 70% have gotten the first shot and more than 50% are fully vaccinated.

So while I completely understand your feelings of anxiety, I just wanted to let you know that CDC have to say that those with vaccinations can spread the virus, because there is a non-zero possibility of it - but it's fortunately rare.