...deserves another. Tactless as always, but it's not so bothersome in your own journal at least. :)
Alright, if this is going to be put for the public to see I definitely hafta give my point of view. I should note that Soreth intends to post a distilled version of a fairly complete explanation we gave Mark and Draci, so if you just want the story to judge for yourself, watch for that. What I'm going to do is reply to LITE's comments in particular.
I can't say much about how the breakup with Trill was handled. That was between Soreth and her. I offered whatever help I could give, if Soreth thought there was some way for me to make it easier on her, but given the circumstances I don't think seeing me would've given her any comfort. I would've replied to her lj post except that she specifically asked that I not. If she's reading this... I'm sorry, sis. :( I can't apologize for feeling for Soreth how I do, but I do feel terrible that you've been hurt and I'm, to some extent or another, to blame. :(
Now, about these comments about the depth of Soreth's feelings for me. What you need to understand is that we didn't move from being entertained by each other to, suddenly, being madly in love. For my part, I've loved Soreth for a long time. Time and again I've been forced to step on it, press it down inside me, try anew to accept that he simply could never be mine. I didn't fall for him anytime recently... rather, Soreth (somewhat unintentionally at first) encouraged me, and I stopped restraining myself. I couldn't anymore. He told me he loved me, and while at that time he didn't mean it how I wanted him wanted to, the effect those words had on me (even knowing how he meant it) was profound. That night is what Soreth's mysterious post referred to. However, by the time of his vaguely half-clarifying post, he realized that that night was only the beginning of something.
I said that Soreth told me he loved me that night (Friday). But this is not supposed to indicate that this was a new thing then. Responding to a comment of mine about how he'd completely undone my depression with a few short words, he said something like 'Who knew? If I had, I'd have said them a thousand thousand times by now.'. In actuality there was one time he did say them before, but the circumstances were rather unusual, and I hadn't been so depressed then, so they didn't have the incredible rejuvenating impact they did on Friday, and so there was no escalating effect in Soreth's eyes either. It was just a nice gesture.
(Turns out I need to split my reply into two pieces or LJ gets mad, so I'll cut the first part here.)
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One long rant...
Date: 2001-12-13 05:35 pm (UTC)Alright, if this is going to be put for the public to see I definitely hafta give my point of view. I should note that Soreth intends to post a distilled version of a fairly complete explanation we gave Mark and Draci, so if you just want the story to judge for yourself, watch for that. What I'm going to do is reply to LITE's comments in particular.
I can't say much about how the breakup with Trill was handled. That was between Soreth and her. I offered whatever help I could give, if Soreth thought there was some way for me to make it easier on her, but given the circumstances I don't think seeing me would've given her any comfort. I would've replied to her lj post except that she specifically asked that I not. If she's reading this... I'm sorry, sis. :( I can't apologize for feeling for Soreth how I do, but I do feel terrible that you've been hurt and I'm, to some extent or another, to blame. :(
Now, about these comments about the depth of Soreth's feelings for me. What you need to understand is that we didn't move from being entertained by each other to, suddenly, being madly in love. For my part, I've loved Soreth for a long time. Time and again I've been forced to step on it, press it down inside me, try anew to accept that he simply could never be mine. I didn't fall for him anytime recently... rather, Soreth (somewhat unintentionally at first) encouraged me, and I stopped restraining myself. I couldn't anymore. He told me he loved me, and while at that time he didn't mean it how I wanted him wanted to, the effect those words had on me (even knowing how he meant it) was profound. That night is what Soreth's mysterious post referred to. However, by the time of his vaguely half-clarifying post, he realized that that night was only the beginning of something.
I said that Soreth told me he loved me that night (Friday). But this is not supposed to indicate that this was a new thing then. Responding to a comment of mine about how he'd completely undone my depression with a few short words, he said something like 'Who knew? If I had, I'd have said them a thousand thousand times by now.'. In actuality there was one time he did say them before, but the circumstances were rather unusual, and I hadn't been so depressed then, so they didn't have the incredible rejuvenating impact they did on Friday, and so there was no escalating effect in Soreth's eyes either. It was just a nice gesture.
(Turns out I need to split my reply into two pieces or LJ gets mad, so I'll cut the first part here.)