The Tao of LITE?
May. 9th, 2002 11:08 pmToday's been an interesting day.
Went to school, worked on stuff for tommorow's dinner (if I never mentioned, we're responsible for the entertainment. We don't have much, but it should be amusing.)
Blah blah etc.
Went to a couple of bike stores to look into bike prices. Basically, it's going to cost...alot more than I thought. I expected less than $200 and with all the gear I'll need, It'll probably cost $250-$300. Which I don't have at the moment. And if I end up having to buy a hotel in Rochester or want to go to New York (Seattle is looking less likely for a couple of reasons which I won't get into here) for a couple days, it might not happen.
This is not the end of the world. My brother has a decent bike I might be able to borrow for a half hour during the day. When he's in a good mood, I'll ask him and see what he says. Then I might look into getting a bike for my birthday (since i'm not looking at having to buy much in the way of books for school (for a change) )
So... plan. Plan is good. Besides, it'll tell me if this is something I want to spend my money on before I spend it and never use it!
Then I went to Barnes and Nobles.
What I was LOOKING for, when I entered the store, was a book or two on mythologies. Not greek or norse, more... something different. Wasn't sure what. What I ENDED Up finding was the Eastern Religion section. I sort of gravitated to set of books on Zen and Buddhism. Picked a couple up, thumbed through them, put them down.
Found the New Age section (it was just two bookshelfs down) and looked around.. and found NOTHING that interested me. It didn't feel right to get any of those books.
Went back to Eastern Religions and left with "Zen and the art of Motorcycle Maintenance" and "A complete idiot's guide to Taoism."
Don't ask me why I bought these two particular books. I don't particularly have an answer. It just felt the right thing to do.
Left, went home and got mail. Please don't take offense to this, but I found this really amusing.
I went through the mailbox and there was a letter FOR ME from some christian association. Basically the gist of the letter was I COULD BE SAVED. I was to write seven things I wanted from God, send it back to the people who had sent me the letter (No doubt to get other mail and stuff) and read some sealed letter 24 hours after sending my mail out. After nearly dying of laughter (the irony of the situation was just too funny to me), I read quickly through portions of the letter and threw it out.
I went upstairs and started reading the guide to Taoism. Got to about chapter five before my eyelids got too heavy and I ended up taking a small nappy (me and baby Bandit).
Some of what's in this book resonates with my own beliefs. Some I totally don't understand. Other portions I'm not sure about at the moment.
I'm not sure I'm going to come out of this some Zen Buddhist or something, but I feel myself being led in this direction. Not sure what'll come of it.
I feel like I'm changing.. not just spiritually, but in smaller ways. I've got this sudden feeling like what i was is over and I'm itchy and hyper and...I can't explain it. Not in words.
I can maybe explain it like this. Until recently I always stayed on one channel.. the Edge.. but I've felt itchy and I can't help myself.. if I don't like the song.. really like it.. *piff* off to another song.
Actually, it was good.. I found the River (canadian station playing canadian music and 80s stuff) during lunch. Lotsa cool 80s music :)
Having a hard time doing the same thing in the gym too. I don't even feel as compelled as I should to go TO the gym and work out, but when i do, I keep cutting it short. I need to get back in SOME sort of habit here...
I dunno.
So, anyways, wake up from my nappy, go online and find Soreth.
This is where things get messy.
I started discussing things with Soreth. We went from a semi-sane conversation to just.. odd. I'll be the first person to admit that we were getting odd, but Soreth and I were still talking.
The problem was that Josh was in the room. And I guess he didn't feel comfortable with what I was saying.
What angered me was instead of discussing it with me and/or saying "Well, I disagree with you. You're wrong." he was paging about me behind my back. This really annoys me.
I can accept people who don't agree with me. I've had a few discussions with
nissacrosseyed and here and I definately do not see eye to eye about religion, but it's OK, because we can both accept that we disagree. But to page about me instead?
So I was severely annoyed about that.
Not a whole lot else to say. Mostly wanted to relate the tale of the two books, the one letter and my annoyance.
So that's it. TTFN!
Went to school, worked on stuff for tommorow's dinner (if I never mentioned, we're responsible for the entertainment. We don't have much, but it should be amusing.)
Blah blah etc.
Went to a couple of bike stores to look into bike prices. Basically, it's going to cost...alot more than I thought. I expected less than $200 and with all the gear I'll need, It'll probably cost $250-$300. Which I don't have at the moment. And if I end up having to buy a hotel in Rochester or want to go to New York (Seattle is looking less likely for a couple of reasons which I won't get into here) for a couple days, it might not happen.
This is not the end of the world. My brother has a decent bike I might be able to borrow for a half hour during the day. When he's in a good mood, I'll ask him and see what he says. Then I might look into getting a bike for my birthday (since i'm not looking at having to buy much in the way of books for school (for a change) )
So... plan. Plan is good. Besides, it'll tell me if this is something I want to spend my money on before I spend it and never use it!
Then I went to Barnes and Nobles.
What I was LOOKING for, when I entered the store, was a book or two on mythologies. Not greek or norse, more... something different. Wasn't sure what. What I ENDED Up finding was the Eastern Religion section. I sort of gravitated to set of books on Zen and Buddhism. Picked a couple up, thumbed through them, put them down.
Found the New Age section (it was just two bookshelfs down) and looked around.. and found NOTHING that interested me. It didn't feel right to get any of those books.
Went back to Eastern Religions and left with "Zen and the art of Motorcycle Maintenance" and "A complete idiot's guide to Taoism."
Don't ask me why I bought these two particular books. I don't particularly have an answer. It just felt the right thing to do.
Left, went home and got mail. Please don't take offense to this, but I found this really amusing.
I went through the mailbox and there was a letter FOR ME from some christian association. Basically the gist of the letter was I COULD BE SAVED. I was to write seven things I wanted from God, send it back to the people who had sent me the letter (No doubt to get other mail and stuff) and read some sealed letter 24 hours after sending my mail out. After nearly dying of laughter (the irony of the situation was just too funny to me), I read quickly through portions of the letter and threw it out.
I went upstairs and started reading the guide to Taoism. Got to about chapter five before my eyelids got too heavy and I ended up taking a small nappy (me and baby Bandit).
Some of what's in this book resonates with my own beliefs. Some I totally don't understand. Other portions I'm not sure about at the moment.
I'm not sure I'm going to come out of this some Zen Buddhist or something, but I feel myself being led in this direction. Not sure what'll come of it.
I feel like I'm changing.. not just spiritually, but in smaller ways. I've got this sudden feeling like what i was is over and I'm itchy and hyper and...I can't explain it. Not in words.
I can maybe explain it like this. Until recently I always stayed on one channel.. the Edge.. but I've felt itchy and I can't help myself.. if I don't like the song.. really like it.. *piff* off to another song.
Actually, it was good.. I found the River (canadian station playing canadian music and 80s stuff) during lunch. Lotsa cool 80s music :)
Having a hard time doing the same thing in the gym too. I don't even feel as compelled as I should to go TO the gym and work out, but when i do, I keep cutting it short. I need to get back in SOME sort of habit here...
I dunno.
So, anyways, wake up from my nappy, go online and find Soreth.
This is where things get messy.
I started discussing things with Soreth. We went from a semi-sane conversation to just.. odd. I'll be the first person to admit that we were getting odd, but Soreth and I were still talking.
The problem was that Josh was in the room. And I guess he didn't feel comfortable with what I was saying.
What angered me was instead of discussing it with me and/or saying "Well, I disagree with you. You're wrong." he was paging about me behind my back. This really annoys me.
I can accept people who don't agree with me. I've had a few discussions with
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So I was severely annoyed about that.
Not a whole lot else to say. Mostly wanted to relate the tale of the two books, the one letter and my annoyance.
So that's it. TTFN!