I wish...

[hkellick]

I wish I had a coat of silk, the color of the sky.
I wish I had a lady fair as any butterfly
I wish I had a house of stone that looked down on the sea
But most of all I wish that I was someone else but me.

I wish I was SuperHoward.
I don't care about being able to jump over tall buildings or flying or dodging bullets at the speed of light.
What I'd really like to do is really HELP people with their problems.

There was a time, not so very long ago, where I thought I was making a real difference in people's lives.
Maybe it was all in my mind. Probably it was, but I felt more THERE for the people in my life than I am now.
Like I could do more for them then hug them and pat their heads and tell them that I was there for them and that everything would work out.

But that's all I can do. At least now.
Around me, everyone has their own set of problems.
Bad problems.

The only thing I can do is be myself and be there.
But... neither of those is enough to solve anyone else's problems.
I'm not even sure what sort of real help, if any, that is.
Hell, neither of those is enough to solve my own problems.
*sigh*

Comments

[dustkitten.livejournal.com]

I think after a while we learn that even if our words could solve everything, there's still the human buffer where the person truly believes deep down that things will right themselves, or that person really loves them, or they deserve to be hit, etc etc.

And you just..start to believe yourself that the only help one can give is sitting next to them in silence, even if you can't literally be next to them.

It's both frustrating and humbling.

-A-

[lite.livejournal.com]

But what if things don't turn all right?
I won't even touch deserving being hit. Very few people ever deserve violence unto their persons.

It's just.. frustrating...
Everyone has a set of problems that just never seem to go away.
And no one can make them go away.
And... it's not fair.

And yes, I realize, that this entire world is the antithesis of fair, but...that doesn't help when the people around you are suffering.

All I want to be is happy. I want my friends to be happy. But no one's happy.. not really. Maybe they're happy in the fleeting minute when they're with people they love or doing something they love. Maybe they put on their happy face. But deep down inside...

[dustkitten.livejournal.com]

I won't even touch deserving being hit. Very few people ever deserve violence unto their persons.

I said _they believe_ they deserve being hit.


My only problems that never go away are the issues with the house, I think, right now.

I am happy inside my soul, and I think I would be even without Adam. I am happy to be home, I am happy to create for myself a social life, I like my job and the people I work with, I feel things can only get better.

I know that all things in life go up and down, but I refuse to think "Well, gee, where's the down?" (I know it's the lack of hot water. Hee.) I am very very happy living day by day with joy.

It's sort of a blinders-on way to be, but better than dwelling on the bullshit and creating doomy self-fulfilling prophecies.

Maybe more people should practice the mindset, but of course if I mention that them..we're back to my original comment. :)

-A-

[nissacrosseyed.livejournal.com]

I have been thinking about this post for the last few days.

I think the key is that we need to accept that we aren't always going to be happy. The goal is to try to achieve that. Everything is not going to go our way and we just have to accept that and try to make the best of it. We were given emotions and awareness for a reason, I believe... and so being sad or angry or depressed ocassionally are part of being human.

This idea particularly sucks when you see friends that aren't happy with things. It is easy to accept it for myself, but I would bend over backwards if I saw a friend who was hurting about something.

[kareila]

You helped me talk through some things today. That means a lot to me. Thank you for being there.

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[tunoddenrub.livejournal.com]

You helped me as well, LITE. More than you realize, I think. You said one particular thing that for some reason made me feel quite a bit better... Feel free to ask me what in person (Well, so to speak).