hkellick: (Glowing Friend)
I was posting in my facebook about K being pregnant. A friend of mine from CC responded. We started talking back and forth and one thing led to another and he basically invited me back to the CC Chat. And I couldn't come up with any particular reason I should say no. I miss my friends from CC and while a couple of them have come over here to stalk me, by and large.. I just don't hear from them.

So I logged back on.

And it all rushed back. The good, the bad and the ugly. And I remembered.. that this time I didn't need to get involved in the bad part of the site.

I think, looking back and reading through some of the final posts.. I was just in a bad place, mentally and.. with the mod thing. I know, back then, work was really frustrating, I was still recovering from Gall Bladder, and .. I just couldn't handle the typical garbage that was part of the job.

But I didn't think I could quit. I was "NEEDED". Igor and Erik NEEDED me to fill the role and there really wasn't anyone else who could do what I was doing. Others needed me too.
And if that sounds a bit self-centered and a little bit crazy.. I agree with you from here.

So I went off the deep end. I got super defensive, a little bit crazy and finally in a flash of drama disappeared.

Which.. actually knowing myself... even knowing I was trying NOT to be dramatic... isn't much of a surprise.

Logging back in today, I swore to myself I was done with modding. And that I was going to try to avoid the posts I know to avoid (like the one today about Creationism vs. Evolution. I KNOW that that post is going to devolve into another Religious Debate because I know the Character of the Site.)

And it was good. I had a good time kicking it around with my friends in Chat and, yes, it's nice to be missed and appreciated.
hkellick: Pittsburgh, City of Bridges (Default)
I think.. having gotten as interested in the political stuff as I did for as long as I did.. and then finally having gotten the president I wanted.. yesterday I was euphoric.. today, I just feel wiped out.

I'm still happy my candidate won, but I'm done with arguing, done with trying to correct people. I see there's still a bunch of active threads in CC's Lounge about the election and I just.. don't have the stomach to be involved.

Tomorrow we'll be seeing the Capitol Steps, Musical Political Comedy. THIS I'm looking forward to. Whereas the stuff in the Lounge almost makes me cringe, I know I'll be busting a gut laughing tomorrow at the Capitol Steps' take on things. There's SO much for them to mock from this past election.
Hopefully this time we don't end up sitting next to the Conservative with no sense of humor who only laughs when they mock Barack but audibly mutters and gives us the fisheye when they mock McCain and we laugh.
hkellick: Pittsburgh, City of Bridges (Contented)
And I'd like to thank those of you whom would like to point out that I'm not Furry to please silence themselves. :) That's what my Cat Calendar says and it amuses me! :)

It's Friday. And do you know what that means? :)
It means... that the weekend draws nigh!
*attempts to sketch the concept of nigh, fails* Curses.

Yesterday was a pretty good day, as I posted yesterday. Except for the traffic on the way home, but.. it's DC, and there isn't an awful lot you can DO about that here, except, you know, not drive :p (And then you gotta worry about snarls on the Metro systems or the busses being late, but.. anyways..)

K's still got the cough of death and I'm trying to suck down enough Zinc pills and Vitamin C to stop the cold of death from hitting me or, if it does, being much more muted than it has been for K! :p
Cause she sounds like she's coughing up a hairball, which is not an attractive sound for a 28 year old human to make.
Just saying.

Gonna pick up K at the Metro Station and hit a game shop. I've gotten the A-OK to buy "Sims 2: Pets" for PS/2. No one's getting it for me for Chrismannukah, so tonight, it shall be mine! ;D
Bwahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! ;D
Mine, I say, All mine! ;D

... OK, I'm done. :)

Oh, so despite my "I quit forever and ever" thing for C-C, as of yesterday, I became volunteer moderator for The Lounge :) I get to act as a first responder and general assistant to the bossmen in helping to keep things ticking, and to keep things in the Lounge from getting out of hand (and that has, occasionally, happened :) )

.. can't think of anything to say.

Making this one public :)
hkellick: Pittsburgh, City of Bridges (Shut Up)
This is going to be a usual splork, so... I shall be verbose (as usual!)

I guess let's start with livejournal, ever so quickly, before I move on.
I started livejournalling in 2001. At the time, I was still in college, as were most of my friends. I had all the time in the world to hang out online, as did my friends, and we used it.
But times change and people grow up, get jobs, and get busy. So it is. I don't feel bad about it, it just simply is. And maybe people didn't have as much to say anymore. It's funny how one day seems to run into another when your life becomes... regimented. Wake up, eat, go to work, go home, cook/eat, do chores, go to sleep.
Not to suggest everyone's life is like that. I'm really describing my own.

Enter Calorie-Count.
I came in looking for a place to help me find the support I need to stick with the weight loss.
And I found it, and more.. I found a whole different community. One that was active and fun and interesting. I met people who could make my work days pass by quicker and would amuse me, and I did cherish it.
And I made friends with people. I met some of them in person and strived to meet others in person. I'd still like to meet more of them in person.
I gave back to the community, in a very useful and helpful way that earned me great admiration in some and great enmity in others.

But... along came a bully. Well, really, the bully was there the whole time, long there when I entered the scene.
And.. drama happened. Lots of drama happened. I got caught in the middle of some of it. Some of it happened without me.. IS happening without me.
I could detail the drama, but.. really, the specifics don't matter. And, also, I'm posting this publicly, so best to be wary.
The point, however, was that a bully was on the website and me and the bully... didn't get along so well.

It's not fair to say that my leaving C-C was ONLY about the bully. I was using the site less. Alot less.
I'd stopped answered most questions because most questions would annoy me. It'd be the same question for the billionth time, or someone who's obviously trying to do something unhealthy like try to be 90 lbs. And there weren't many questions I deigned to answer. So.. mostly I chatted.
And also I used c-c as a personal journal, in a way I wasn't using livejournal. I'd tend to get more comments and I felt safer talking about family garbage there. And [ profile] ecwoodburn wasn't.. happy about that. I know she wanted me to post on LJ more, felt my journal had gotten too quiet.

So... anyways.
Thanksgiving comes and thanksgiving goes and I'm already quite uptight about.. stuff (public post. Leaving it there.)
And then I hop on C-C and I see... more drama. Downright nasty drama.
And I see the site maintainer saying that they were really trying to push out code and didn't have the time to play policeman on the journals and...

And... I left. Well, first I went back and made all of my entries private (which was a real pain, let me tell you!)
You can say I overreacted. Maybe I did. Maybe it was the rash actions of someone who was already upset about a weekend, but..
.. well, now it's a couple of days later, and despite the fact that my friends want me to come back and despite the fact that the site maintainers have implemented a new stronger block code which doesn't stop the bully from existing, but does make it so I no longer need to interact with that bully, not on the boards, not in other's journals, not in my own journal.
(Which, my mind suggests, means nothing as a truly dedicated troll just gets some new acounts, the way another troll on the site has.)
And... I'm not sure I really WANT to go back. I miss my friends, and I sort of miss the active community, though, really, I wasn't doing very much with it.
Mostly, I think, I miss the people who were special to me.
And.. I've directed them here, to my livejournal. Some of them have gotten livejournals. Some think I'll be drawn back to c-c like a moth to a flame.

I'm not sure there's a point here. Mostly, I'm just talking.

Maybe the point is... I know my friends want me to come back. I'm not sure I want to. That's why.
I want you all to be a part of my life, to not vanish, but I'm not sure I really want to go back there.
Besides, if we get enough of you here, we can do some neat things. Create an online group where we can all chat and cheer each other on? That's easy. Post in each other's journals. Yep, that too. Not so much with the forums, but... hey, that's OK by me. I wasn't using them anyways.
*shrugs again*

That's about all I gotta say.



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