Dammit :P

I'm depressed.
I'm really depressed.
Actually, I've been depressed all week, but been more or less too busy to think about it.
Everyone in the world has a special someone in their life but me... at least it seems like it.
Mark has Janine. Laurie has Ben (kinda). Even my two best real life friends Dave and Carl have girlfriends.
Even Tab has a girlfriend.
I should be happy for tab, but it just depresses the hell out of me instead.
I'm 26. I think that makes me officially old in some sense. Physically, I'm not getting younger.
It boggles my mind somewhat that I've been so damned unlucky in love. It's.. really fucking depressing too.
I have yet to have any sort of HEALTHY relationship
It's probably me.
I don't know HOW it's me, but it probably is.
I don't understand what the big turn off is. I'm average in appearance, I'm not terribly ugly or terribly overweight. I'm not a slob. I do bathe regularly. I'm smart, I'm funny, I'm nice.
But here I am... I'm 26. I haven't had ANY sort of relationship in a year.
I don't.. understand.. what's going wrong. It can't be totally terrible luck.
I mean... I am shy. I can't just ask a girl if they do or don't have a boyfriend. I can't do that.
Maybe that's it.
But I doubt it.

I dunno.
It must be me.

Emode.com Identity Test

I took this test today. Let's see how close it gets

Openness To Experience

Your high score in the Openness category means that you probably have a strong creative streak So far, so good. Your broad intellectual curiosity and your interest in the various arts set you apart. Some people may consider you somewhat of a dreamer, and your taste for variety often means moving quickly on to the next experience. This tendency makes you appear a bit flighty and inconsistent. But these elements of your personality simply reflect a character full of new ideas and charged with emotions.

Conscientiousness

Your medium score in the Conscientiousness category means that you have achieved a solid balance in your outlook towards responsibility. You are probably somewhat organized, with a little room for mprovement Yep. I'm mostly organized.. Your priorities probably reflect a mix of work and play. Thoughtfulness characterizes your thinking style, so you give gravity to important decisions without making a big deal out of minor issues.
You are probably serious about achieving success, but do not feel completely driven by this motivation. All in all, you've got a very healthy perspective on work and duty.
Yeah. Very goal driven. But everyone has to have fun now and then

Extraversion

Your medium score in the Extraversion category defines your social identity. You are probably comfortable in either a crowd or by yourself, and spending time alone or with company is equally enjoyable. When among others, you tend to stand in the foreground Yep., although you may not always wish to take the position of a leader. Instead, you seem to prefer moving between the role of leader and follower, as the situation requires Yep again. You probably keep a moderately active social life; you're generally on the lookout for excitement, but certainly don't require it. You tend to keep a fairly positive emotional outlook, and people can usually count on your for some good cheer.

Agreeableness

The Agreeableness category refers to your social disposition. Your medium score indicates someone who balances the priorities of your own inner voice with the needs of others. You tend to be concerned with the harmony of the group, while maintaining a certain independence. Depending on the situation, you might adopt a stance that defers to the wishes of others, or else assert your own individuality. In this way, you have a great deal of tact, HA! *snicker* and believe in the situational equality of people. You probably have an approachable and kind personality. People probably admire you for your ability to speak your mind when appropriate.

Negative Emotionality

Negative Emotionality refers to your emotional reactivity. Your medium score means that you're someone who negotiates your emotions depending on your situation. Sometimes you may feel quite sensitive and emotional, while other times you may remain resilient to outside pressures. This quality of adaptation best describes your emotional character. You maintain a rational outlook, which is moderated by feelings. For example, you can sometimes feel sad, stressed, worried or embarrassed under the weight of a situation, but you are able to act quite calm and reserved, without yielding to the stress. Responsive, without being overly reactive, is the best way to describe you.
I dunno about the last one.

*shrug*

w00

Emode's IQ test labels me as having a 124 IQ.
Go me! :)