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hkellickI'm depressed.
I'm really depressed.
Actually, I've been depressed all week, but been more or less too busy to think about it.
Everyone in the world has a special someone in their life but me... at least it seems like it.
Mark has Janine. Laurie has Ben (kinda). Even my two best real life friends Dave and Carl have girlfriends.
Even Tab has a girlfriend.
I should be happy for tab, but it just depresses the hell out of me instead.
I'm 26. I think that makes me officially old in some sense. Physically, I'm not getting younger.
It boggles my mind somewhat that I've been so damned unlucky in love. It's.. really fucking depressing too.
I have yet to have any sort of HEALTHY relationship
It's probably me.
I don't know HOW it's me, but it probably is.
I don't understand what the big turn off is. I'm average in appearance, I'm not terribly ugly or terribly overweight. I'm not a slob. I do bathe regularly. I'm smart, I'm funny, I'm nice.
But here I am... I'm 26. I haven't had ANY sort of relationship in a year.
I don't.. understand.. what's going wrong. It can't be totally terrible luck.
I mean... I am shy. I can't just ask a girl if they do or don't have a boyfriend. I can't do that.
Maybe that's it.
But I doubt it.
I dunno.
It must be me.
I'm really depressed.
Actually, I've been depressed all week, but been more or less too busy to think about it.
Everyone in the world has a special someone in their life but me... at least it seems like it.
Mark has Janine. Laurie has Ben (kinda). Even my two best real life friends Dave and Carl have girlfriends.
Even Tab has a girlfriend.
I should be happy for tab, but it just depresses the hell out of me instead.
I'm 26. I think that makes me officially old in some sense. Physically, I'm not getting younger.
It boggles my mind somewhat that I've been so damned unlucky in love. It's.. really fucking depressing too.
I have yet to have any sort of HEALTHY relationship
It's probably me.
I don't know HOW it's me, but it probably is.
I don't understand what the big turn off is. I'm average in appearance, I'm not terribly ugly or terribly overweight. I'm not a slob. I do bathe regularly. I'm smart, I'm funny, I'm nice.
But here I am... I'm 26. I haven't had ANY sort of relationship in a year.
I don't.. understand.. what's going wrong. It can't be totally terrible luck.
I mean... I am shy. I can't just ask a girl if they do or don't have a boyfriend. I can't do that.
Maybe that's it.
But I doubt it.
I dunno.
It must be me.
