Bad Day, Stupidity, Job Wibbles and Hey!

This will probably be a long LJ entry.

I went to the gym yesterday and worked out for half an hour.. 10 minutes jogging, 10 minutes on the elliptical and 10 minutes on the exercise bike. I came home exhausted and starving.
I ate and the starving went away. The exhaustion never did.

Went to bed semi-early (10:00 or so, because Linda, our cleaning lady came today.), was woken at 4:45, went back to sleep at 5:30 and was up at 6:30 for Linda.
And I woke up EXHAUSTED. More than Exhausted. Could hardly keep my eyes open exhausted.
And I couldn't go back to sleep because of work and stuff.
And so I stayed up (basically) and watched the 4th season DVDs of M*A*S*H.. I did close my eyes around 8:00, but unshockingly I couldn't sleep through Linda cleaning.

So I got my sorry ass up and went to work, exhausted.
Signed on.. no Kristen. OK. Maybe she's doing errands.
Go to some 10:00 presentation of some student I don't know's PhD. It was.. boring (most of these talks are) and it didn't help that I was so exhausted. It got so bad that I wanted nothing better than to just walk out and go hang out online.
Came back, more tired and more bored than before and log on.. no Kristen still.

Eventually, Star also wonders where Kristen is and calls her. Kristen's not having a good day either. Her hard drive fan busted and she needs to get it fixed. Well, damn. Ah well.
So I go to work, run my model, play with my outline, leave early.

Leave at 2:00 and check mail and there's a letter from Super 8.
For those who don't remember, Super 8 is where dawnstar and kolys stayed earlier this year for the Billy Joel and Elton John concert. The price was good, so I gave them another try for the Dork-a-Thon.. I put a reservation under Oliver St. John (So I thought!) but they wanted $90 so I said I'd call back.. before I got a confirmation number.
I called back a week later and tried to cancel the reservation, but it wasn't under Oliver St. John. And I didn't have a confirmation number. Could they track it by phone number, asked I? No. Credit Card number? No.
Well, damn. OK, said I.. maybe the thing never went through.
Fast forward to today, abotu another week later. I get a letter saying I was charged $89 because Sant Jone didn't show up for his reservation.
SANT JONE? How did you twist Oliver St. John to SANT JONE, you moron?!?!
So I called back and said "This is your mistake. Fix it."
We can't help you sir. You need to speak to our manager, but she's not in.
OK, can I leave a message then?
So I leave a message and go take a nap.
To finish the story, I called back around 5:30, got the manager who agreed that the name "Sant Jone" seemed a bit odd and said she'd refund the cost tommorow. So yay for a happy ending THERE.

Twice I got woken up by freaking hang ups. Again. LOVELY.
So I finally get to sleep sleep around 3:00 and wake up at 4:00, back to sleep, up at 4:45. Still tired, but not exhausted. OK.

Go downstairs for a few minutes and ecwoodburn calls all excited. She's got an interview!
Suddenly the bottom drops out of my stomach. She's got a job. I don't. She'll end up working odd hours and I'll never see again!
I calm myself down for a bit (and only a bit) and talk to her, wishing her luck (I really DO hope she gets a job, preferably Monday through Friday 9 to 5. Not Saturday or Sunday.) but my mind starts whirling.
And I panic.
I don't have a job. I've tried a bit and no success.
I was trying to get a job in Boston and failed.
And, now that I think about it, maybe there's a reason for it. Maybe it's best I never got a job in Boston.
Boston is about 5, 5 1/2 hours (according to kareila from Rochester, from my Kristen.
Well, say I, I was going to take the next week and a half while my thesis advisor isn't around to really send out a shitload of resumes (something I still intend to do)..
But I start panicing.
What if Kristen gets a job and it takes her away from me?
What if I get a job and it takes her away from me?
What if I try to get a job in the Buffalo, Rochester and Syracuse area and can't find one?
What if I end up getting a job many miles away,.. in Boston or Ann Arbor or somewhere that makes Kristen and I an LDR?

If I think about it, it's amazing. Two months ago, all I wanted was a job near my friends in Boston.
Now.. now I don't think I do. Boston will be near my friends, but it will be far from the woman I love.
See how you've messed up my life, Kristen? ;) (just kidding, dearest *smooch*)

And I start wibbling and panicking and wibbling.

I took mom and Josh out for a nice dinner to thank them for being such good sports about this last weekend, and I'm sitting there, sweating, panicing.. just being generally freaky.

Come home, get online and wibble for about half an hour to Kristen.

Meanwhile, I go back to the UB Career Services Job Board.
They have a new listing. Just put up a week ago.
For an entry-level civil engineering position at E&E Inc. in Lancaster, New York (not too far from where I live now.)
I can apply right now!
I might even have a good chance to get it. I AM QUALIFIED enough.
So between Kristen who wants to help me get a job any way she can and the career office and this well-timed job find, I've stopped panicing.

Still need a job, though.
Also sleep.

Anyways, I'll post this. This is probably long enough anyways. :)