Bad Day, Stupidity, Job Wibbles and Hey!

[hkellick]

This will probably be a long LJ entry.

I went to the gym yesterday and worked out for half an hour.. 10 minutes jogging, 10 minutes on the elliptical and 10 minutes on the exercise bike. I came home exhausted and starving.
I ate and the starving went away. The exhaustion never did.

Went to bed semi-early (10:00 or so, because Linda, our cleaning lady came today.), was woken at 4:45, went back to sleep at 5:30 and was up at 6:30 for Linda.
And I woke up EXHAUSTED. More than Exhausted. Could hardly keep my eyes open exhausted.
And I couldn't go back to sleep because of work and stuff.
And so I stayed up (basically) and watched the 4th season DVDs of M*A*S*H.. I did close my eyes around 8:00, but unshockingly I couldn't sleep through Linda cleaning.

So I got my sorry ass up and went to work, exhausted.
Signed on.. no Kristen. OK. Maybe she's doing errands.
Go to some 10:00 presentation of some student I don't know's PhD. It was.. boring (most of these talks are) and it didn't help that I was so exhausted. It got so bad that I wanted nothing better than to just walk out and go hang out online.
Came back, more tired and more bored than before and log on.. no Kristen still.

Eventually, Star also wonders where Kristen is and calls her. Kristen's not having a good day either. Her hard drive fan busted and she needs to get it fixed. Well, damn. Ah well.
So I go to work, run my model, play with my outline, leave early.

Leave at 2:00 and check mail and there's a letter from Super 8.
For those who don't remember, Super 8 is where dawnstar and kolys stayed earlier this year for the Billy Joel and Elton John concert. The price was good, so I gave them another try for the Dork-a-Thon.. I put a reservation under Oliver St. John (So I thought!) but they wanted $90 so I said I'd call back.. before I got a confirmation number.
I called back a week later and tried to cancel the reservation, but it wasn't under Oliver St. John. And I didn't have a confirmation number. Could they track it by phone number, asked I? No. Credit Card number? No.
Well, damn. OK, said I.. maybe the thing never went through.
Fast forward to today, abotu another week later. I get a letter saying I was charged $89 because Sant Jone didn't show up for his reservation.
SANT JONE? How did you twist Oliver St. John to SANT JONE, you moron?!?!
So I called back and said "This is your mistake. Fix it."
We can't help you sir. You need to speak to our manager, but she's not in.
OK, can I leave a message then?
So I leave a message and go take a nap.
To finish the story, I called back around 5:30, got the manager who agreed that the name "Sant Jone" seemed a bit odd and said she'd refund the cost tommorow. So yay for a happy ending THERE.

Twice I got woken up by freaking hang ups. Again. LOVELY.
So I finally get to sleep sleep around 3:00 and wake up at 4:00, back to sleep, up at 4:45. Still tired, but not exhausted. OK.

Go downstairs for a few minutes and ecwoodburn calls all excited. She's got an interview!
Suddenly the bottom drops out of my stomach. She's got a job. I don't. She'll end up working odd hours and I'll never see again!
I calm myself down for a bit (and only a bit) and talk to her, wishing her luck (I really DO hope she gets a job, preferably Monday through Friday 9 to 5. Not Saturday or Sunday.) but my mind starts whirling.
And I panic.
I don't have a job. I've tried a bit and no success.
I was trying to get a job in Boston and failed.
And, now that I think about it, maybe there's a reason for it. Maybe it's best I never got a job in Boston.
Boston is about 5, 5 1/2 hours (according to kareila from Rochester, from my Kristen.
Well, say I, I was going to take the next week and a half while my thesis advisor isn't around to really send out a shitload of resumes (something I still intend to do)..
But I start panicing.
What if Kristen gets a job and it takes her away from me?
What if I get a job and it takes her away from me?
What if I try to get a job in the Buffalo, Rochester and Syracuse area and can't find one?
What if I end up getting a job many miles away,.. in Boston or Ann Arbor or somewhere that makes Kristen and I an LDR?

If I think about it, it's amazing. Two months ago, all I wanted was a job near my friends in Boston.
Now.. now I don't think I do. Boston will be near my friends, but it will be far from the woman I love.
See how you've messed up my life, Kristen? ;) (just kidding, dearest *smooch*)

And I start wibbling and panicking and wibbling.

I took mom and Josh out for a nice dinner to thank them for being such good sports about this last weekend, and I'm sitting there, sweating, panicing.. just being generally freaky.

Come home, get online and wibble for about half an hour to Kristen.

Meanwhile, I go back to the UB Career Services Job Board.
They have a new listing. Just put up a week ago.
For an entry-level civil engineering position at E&E Inc. in Lancaster, New York (not too far from where I live now.)
I can apply right now!
I might even have a good chance to get it. I AM QUALIFIED enough.
So between Kristen who wants to help me get a job any way she can and the career office and this well-timed job find, I've stopped panicing.

Still need a job, though.
Also sleep.

Anyways, I'll post this. This is probably long enough anyways. :)

Comments

[kareila]

Things do have a way of working themselves out. *hug*

[lite.livejournal.com]

Yeah, they do.
I can't say I've lived anything close to a charmed life, but at least things seem to work themselves out before I'm screwed.

I've got some options and I've got some ideas but the vast majority seem to keep me in the Buffalo area. C'est La Vie, I guess.
I really did have nice dreams of moving to Boston and being closer to you and Marky and Trilli and such.
I guess, if I do end up staying here, I'll have to just keep working and try to set up the occasional "Buffalo Party" instead :)
At least I know people will come ;)

[kareila]

Yeah... I think it's more important for you to get out on your own. As long as you can find a job and move out of your family's house. And that might be easier on them and on you if you don't move too far away at first.

[lite.livejournal.com]

The finding of the job will be the hardest part of this whole thing :p

And yeah, there are certain advantages of staying in the area. Like being able to spend holidays with family. (mmm... thanksgiving :) )

[kholnuu.livejournal.com]

Yay for you!

[dawnstar.livejournal.com]

Actually, Kristen called me, to tell me to relay the message to you. :)

[phoenixsong]

And it was the power supply fan.

(Because, you know, they all care that much. I know. s:P~

[lite.livejournal.com]

My mistake.

[phoenixsong]

If we end up in different cities, well...let's not borrow trouble. If it happens, we'll figure something out. And I wouldn't rule out moving elsewhere, it's just easier (for me, at least) to look in the general Upstate NY area than elsewhere because I've some idea what sorts of companies exist here.

Things have a way of working out for me, usually just at the point where I think I'm going to have to give up and beg my parents to take me back in. All Higher Power(s) willing, this will include you (though hopefully not quite to that point first). If not, I'm going to be one very unhappy little girl. But, basically, this is why I'm sure things will fall into place -- Someone keeps watching out for me. Remember my fortune from Sunday. s:)

Love you, my pixie. Don't forget that in your wibbles, OK? *pulls close*

[lite.livejournal.com]

As I replied to Kareila, things seem to work out for me too. I get myself into all sorts of knots at times, but despite starting off with little to no money, I've managed to get through ten years of school, get a good education and, once I find a job, can make a comfortable living, moneywise.
As far as family planning... I dunno. Don't wanna count my chickens before they hatch, but maybe that's all working itself out for me too.
If so.. job: Check, Friends: Check, Family: Check (eventually).
That sounds about what I REALLY need to live a happy life.
The setting doesn't matter. If I end up living my life in Western New York instead of some bigger more glamorous city, that's OK. At least I know the city, and it's people and am near the people I love (again, friends, family and, of course, you.)

I could never forget that you love me. Half of my wibbles are because we love each other and I don't wanna lose you. But, like the point of this post was, it'll work out. I'll throw out a bunch of resumes, see if I can tap some network resources I've sorta built up in the area and see about getting a job around here (now that I guess I'm NOT all that willing to relocate for the moment.)

[hbbtrbbtbcnbt.livejournal.com]

*sends out good thoughts to you and Kristen both on the job front*

[lite.livejournal.com]

Thank ye kindly. From both of us. :)