hkellick | The state of the LITE

I haven't posted alot since the 4th and I really wanted to try and say alot of stuff (though, of course, now that I'm sitting down to write, I can't remember everything I wanted to say, so... I'll just start posting and hope this makes sense later)

So... I'll put everything under descriptive headers and hope it makes sense later.

The Significance of 2003 on my internet life
I've been meaning to bring this up in the past, but never found the right time or words. I'll try to say it now.
I always knew that the time might come, probably when I started working a real job where the signifance of the internet on my life might drop. As it turns out, I was right, but for the wrong reasons.
I've never really had a "real life" since I started using the internet in 1993. My friends, by and large, were online and online alone and while I did occasionally see people, it wasn't anything you could depend on. So as I grew up, I found myself spending hours upon hours online with... well, most of you dorks :)
When ChaoticMUX finally came about in 1996, it became my second and my prefered home, a place where I could be me and hang out with those like me and have a good time.
Times changed, of course... but even as ChaoticMUX waned, I hung out there if only because all my friends were there and because I didn't have an awful lot of other ways to get together with people.
All this changed in 2003 when I started seeing

ecwoodburn (and, occasionally, some of the Rochester crew) on a regular basis.
It amuses Kristen and amazes me that when I started dating Kristen, I couldn't really imagine that I'd give up the internet as my primary source to interact with my friends, but a mere 6.5 months, well.. in a month, I've probably been on ChaoticMUX once, maybe twice and AIM a handful of times. I desire real life contact now. Phone conversations are OK, but real life meeting is better.
This is not to say I'm abandoning the internet altogether. I'm unhappy with the medium, but still cherish the friendships I've propogated through it. What I'm really saying is that I much prefer the choice of hanging out with y'all in a real life setting than an internet-only setting. I'm sticking with LJ and, to a more limited extent, AIM... but, admittedly, I think I'm ready to say goodbye to ChaoticMUX. It WAS my second home in a different lifetime (in a time when I had hours to kill online, when there was always someone worth chatting with on and something usually going on on the Public Channel.). Now my second home is in a little apartment off the 104 in Rochester with the girl I love.
I could probably say alot more here about how it's unshocking I'm leaving Chaotic or to justify my actions, but.. I think I'll move on to the next heading.

Job Stuffs
I wrote Jacques Whitford back and they are (hopefully) going to get back to me soonsoon about my third interview.
I know, though, that if they don't come through with a Job Offer within a week or two, I have to start looking for another job besides Bed, Bath and Beyond because, now that Christmas is over, I'm getting shit for hours and it's likely that, if I remained, I'd continue to get shitty hours through February. I can't afford that. I need to be paying my bills and I need more money than they can offer.
So... hopefully Jacques Whitford comes through soon, because I *REALLY* don't want to go through all the hassle of trying to get another farqing min wage job while looking for a real job :/

On Kristen and Me
I wanted to post, if only for myself, an update on Kristen and I for the year 2004. I'm hoping in a year from now I can look back at having spent a year and a half with the dork of my dreams and how much more wonderful we'll be then than we are now.
Things between Kristen and me are wonderful except for the part where the two of us NEED to be living in the same city already.
I'm not sure if I understand what a "normal" relationship is, or how to define it, but everything I've heard about healthy relationships says that the two of us are on the right track. In just six months, we've gone from just being sappy together to really being important to each other in ways that aren't easily written down.
In just six months she went from being this girl I really liked and hoped to have a relationship with to my best friend, the first person I want to do anything with and the one I want to experience some of life's moments with. When I got my first job interview with Jacques Whitford, the first person I called was Kristen. Then, only afterwards, did I call grandma (and had to wait on telling my mother until she got home). I don't know everything about her life or family, but many of these things have an importance now than they didn't have six months ago.
And likely, will continue to gain in importance as we continue to date.

I'm getting cold and a little bored of writing, so I'll post this now and if I think of more to say, than I'll post a new message.
So... yeah. Posting :)