I'm an Engineer and I'm OK...
Apr. 27th, 2005 07:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hkellickI'm an engineer and I'm OK
I sleep all night and I calculate the average head of a storm with a 1% chance of occuring each year assuming a constant flowrate, Q, and various hydraulic characteristics such as cross-section shape all day.
I feel... good today. It might be that I had sex this morning. It might be because, upon talking to Dr. Lockwood last night, she saw it as a challenge to give us what we need instead of "Well then I can't help you". It could be the fact that I'm wearing my bright red shirt and new bright red and blue tie.
It might be I just woke up in a good mood.
I'm a crazy person today, though. You should watch out. I added both strawberries AND blueberries to my bottle of water this morning ;)
So... last night. I want to say something.
K and I worked together beforehand to come up with... an idea of what we wanted to say to Dr. Lockwood. We copied that and printed it and brought it with us.
When Dr. Lockwood finally saw us (she was 20 some minutes late, but she was seeing, I'm not joking here, three women and a dog. One of the women brought a dog in.), we explained our concerns, and began to get into what happened last Saturday.
When we gave her our criticism and attempted to explain what we WERE Looking for, she didn't get upset, but did ask for specifics. We told her.. we needed a little bit more structure and a little bit more.. interactiveness from her. She agreed to try (I think this is one thing that surprised me was.. it seemed like it was a role she didn't fill often, if ever) and suggested we give her a couple more weeks of trying it the way we asked to see if we feel like things are going better.
We also said that we were unhappy because we'd gone to the trouble of logging our break up fight on LJ (on Kristen's LJ) and printing it out for her and we never discussed it. Dr. Lockwood's answer (and it was fair) was that.. she likes to get people to deal with what's on their plates first before she goes back to stuff. Kristen and I, for a number of reasons: toxic work environment, toxic parents, bouts of depression, mother being sick have ALOT on our plates nearly constantly and she wanted to deal with that first.
OK. Fair enough. We explained that while that was true, some of that we could deal with on our own and what we needed her help with is getting the two of us to learn how to communicate better and fight less, basically. Which she accepted.
So we're giving her a couple of sessions to decide if we feel things can get better.
We then briefly swept over the last couple weeks: two Saturdays ago, last Friday (She suggested it was extremely important that, right now, I find.. some sort of positive thing to say about myself and stick it around to remind me not to let this toxic work environment squish me into the pavement. So.. as soon as possible, I'm going to print out, in word "I'm a good engineer, no matter what anyone else may say." and stick it around the house. Possibly a smaller print out for work.)
So... that's where things are.
Maybe everything had to fall to shit in my life for things to get better, for me to get the experience to know what I need out of these things... what I need my girlfriend to be doing, what I need from a job, even what I need out of couples counseling.
That's the optomist's point of view in any case. The pessimist in me suspects shit happens because.. she happens and I should know because shit happens to me often.
I sleep all night and I calculate the average head of a storm with a 1% chance of occuring each year assuming a constant flowrate, Q, and various hydraulic characteristics such as cross-section shape all day.
I feel... good today. It might be that I had sex this morning. It might be because, upon talking to Dr. Lockwood last night, she saw it as a challenge to give us what we need instead of "Well then I can't help you". It could be the fact that I'm wearing my bright red shirt and new bright red and blue tie.
It might be I just woke up in a good mood.
I'm a crazy person today, though. You should watch out. I added both strawberries AND blueberries to my bottle of water this morning ;)
So... last night. I want to say something.
K and I worked together beforehand to come up with... an idea of what we wanted to say to Dr. Lockwood. We copied that and printed it and brought it with us.
When Dr. Lockwood finally saw us (she was 20 some minutes late, but she was seeing, I'm not joking here, three women and a dog. One of the women brought a dog in.), we explained our concerns, and began to get into what happened last Saturday.
When we gave her our criticism and attempted to explain what we WERE Looking for, she didn't get upset, but did ask for specifics. We told her.. we needed a little bit more structure and a little bit more.. interactiveness from her. She agreed to try (I think this is one thing that surprised me was.. it seemed like it was a role she didn't fill often, if ever) and suggested we give her a couple more weeks of trying it the way we asked to see if we feel like things are going better.
We also said that we were unhappy because we'd gone to the trouble of logging our break up fight on LJ (on Kristen's LJ) and printing it out for her and we never discussed it. Dr. Lockwood's answer (and it was fair) was that.. she likes to get people to deal with what's on their plates first before she goes back to stuff. Kristen and I, for a number of reasons: toxic work environment, toxic parents, bouts of depression, mother being sick have ALOT on our plates nearly constantly and she wanted to deal with that first.
OK. Fair enough. We explained that while that was true, some of that we could deal with on our own and what we needed her help with is getting the two of us to learn how to communicate better and fight less, basically. Which she accepted.
So we're giving her a couple of sessions to decide if we feel things can get better.
We then briefly swept over the last couple weeks: two Saturdays ago, last Friday (She suggested it was extremely important that, right now, I find.. some sort of positive thing to say about myself and stick it around to remind me not to let this toxic work environment squish me into the pavement. So.. as soon as possible, I'm going to print out, in word "I'm a good engineer, no matter what anyone else may say." and stick it around the house. Possibly a smaller print out for work.)
So... that's where things are.
Maybe everything had to fall to shit in my life for things to get better, for me to get the experience to know what I need out of these things... what I need my girlfriend to be doing, what I need from a job, even what I need out of couples counseling.
That's the optomist's point of view in any case. The pessimist in me suspects shit happens because.. she happens and I should know because shit happens to me often.
