On Chaotic
Nov. 11th, 2007 04:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hkellickIt's god-awful in the morning and I'm tossing and turning, my mind full of thought
So, I thought I'd try to put some of those thoughts down in writing and maybe get some sleep.
The ChaoticMUX party was, I'd say, everything I'd hoped it would be. I can honestly say that if Jen and Robby had taken the game down for good tonight, I'd be really really sad, but it would have been totally worth it and, I think, the game would have wanted to go that way.
We talked, we played games, mainly we talked.
Hi, how are you, what are you doing now, can we still be friends?
That was the feeling I got most of all from the day, the realization that I really have no idea who most of the people on the other side of the keyboard are anymore. So much has CHANGED.
These people, most of them were my friends once, friends I cherished and love and got to know. You really get to know people over a bit of silliness and a few games because it was never just that. On talkers, people TALK.. about where they are, what they're doing, what's important to them. About life, love, and, occasionally, 42.
I know, for me, I came in with the attempt to try to mend a few fences as well. There were a few people I was good friends with, once upon a time, that I just drifted away from and I knew I missed them. It was good to reconnect again, at least a little.
What I guess is clear to me is.. I have no idea how I did that, how I kept up. Especially over multiple MUSHes. I remember there were days I was doing up to 3 MUSHes. How? I could barely keep up with one! Though to be fair, yesterday felt almost intense.. probably it was. The intensity of knowing that tomorrow, this place wasn't going to be here.
Farewell, old friend. Til next time.
Today... I try to get back to normal. Shop for food, cook, maybe even get into the gym, finish laundry.. and more sleep would be nice.
And then tomorrow... I go back to my social place of choice, where I can still be funny and silly and have fun with people I enjoy spending time with. And maybe see if work will let me download a reader on my computer so I can maybe actually keep up with LJ and the friends that are still very important to me, 12 or so years later. :)
One day... not too far from now. We need another Dorkathon. That would be nice. :)
The previous entry under this tag: ChaoticMUX Pie
So, I thought I'd try to put some of those thoughts down in writing and maybe get some sleep.
The ChaoticMUX party was, I'd say, everything I'd hoped it would be. I can honestly say that if Jen and Robby had taken the game down for good tonight, I'd be really really sad, but it would have been totally worth it and, I think, the game would have wanted to go that way.
We talked, we played games, mainly we talked.
Hi, how are you, what are you doing now, can we still be friends?
That was the feeling I got most of all from the day, the realization that I really have no idea who most of the people on the other side of the keyboard are anymore. So much has CHANGED.
These people, most of them were my friends once, friends I cherished and love and got to know. You really get to know people over a bit of silliness and a few games because it was never just that. On talkers, people TALK.. about where they are, what they're doing, what's important to them. About life, love, and, occasionally, 42.
I know, for me, I came in with the attempt to try to mend a few fences as well. There were a few people I was good friends with, once upon a time, that I just drifted away from and I knew I missed them. It was good to reconnect again, at least a little.
What I guess is clear to me is.. I have no idea how I did that, how I kept up. Especially over multiple MUSHes. I remember there were days I was doing up to 3 MUSHes. How? I could barely keep up with one! Though to be fair, yesterday felt almost intense.. probably it was. The intensity of knowing that tomorrow, this place wasn't going to be here.
Farewell, old friend. Til next time.
Today... I try to get back to normal. Shop for food, cook, maybe even get into the gym, finish laundry.. and more sleep would be nice.
And then tomorrow... I go back to my social place of choice, where I can still be funny and silly and have fun with people I enjoy spending time with. And maybe see if work will let me download a reader on my computer so I can maybe actually keep up with LJ and the friends that are still very important to me, 12 or so years later. :)
One day... not too far from now. We need another Dorkathon. That would be nice. :)
The previous entry under this tag: ChaoticMUX Pie
