A little self-reflection
Mar. 30th, 2009 08:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hkellickI've been feeling a little reflective lately. I've had this livejournal for what feels like a long time, since I followed Marky and Janine here in mid 2001. That's.. nearly 8 years ago.
When I first started using this journal, I was still in college, still on ChaoticMUX. In short, the situation of my life has changed SIGNIFICANTLY.
This journal has seen two moves, the beginning and continuation of a relationship, a bad job, a good job, more death than I'd like to think about and a marriage to boot! I've left communities, entered communities, found new friends, lost old friends.
In short, it's been with me through most of the dramatic changes in my life, certainly all the recent ones.
I guess that says something, though what it says, I couldn't tell you.
Sometimes I miss the past. I miss how things were when life SEEMED simpler and easier. I miss what I thought ChaoticMUX was, though I'm not sure how much my memory even APPROACHES reality anymore. I miss what Calorie-Count was. I miss hanging out with friends in Rochester, playing games. I miss big get-togethers in Buffalo and going to Darien Lake. And I miss what my mom was, before she got sick.
Which, I guess, is proof enough you can never really go back. I appreciate what I have now, by and large.
Just... thinking, I guess.
When I first started using this journal, I was still in college, still on ChaoticMUX. In short, the situation of my life has changed SIGNIFICANTLY.
This journal has seen two moves, the beginning and continuation of a relationship, a bad job, a good job, more death than I'd like to think about and a marriage to boot! I've left communities, entered communities, found new friends, lost old friends.
In short, it's been with me through most of the dramatic changes in my life, certainly all the recent ones.
I guess that says something, though what it says, I couldn't tell you.
Sometimes I miss the past. I miss how things were when life SEEMED simpler and easier. I miss what I thought ChaoticMUX was, though I'm not sure how much my memory even APPROACHES reality anymore. I miss what Calorie-Count was. I miss hanging out with friends in Rochester, playing games. I miss big get-togethers in Buffalo and going to Darien Lake. And I miss what my mom was, before she got sick.
Which, I guess, is proof enough you can never really go back. I appreciate what I have now, by and large.
Just... thinking, I guess.
