My day has gone to complete shit

[hkellick]

It's been hard enough being one week from moving out of Rochester.
But the last week is going to suck all the more.

Long story short, unless a miracle happens and Josh chooses not to go to NYC this weekend (and is healthy enough to be home and help mom), I can't go to Rochester. No, not even for a daytrip.
Party cancelled. Everyone go home.

Why, you ask? You were looking forward to it? So was I.
Until my mom got home from her infection doctor's appointment today and told me that she'll be on an IV for at least two weeks.
I don't think it registered until an hour later that what that means isn't just that I'll have to be her nursemaid for the rest of the time I'm here (between Josh's schedule and him just being sick), but that I can't go out after all Saturday unless Josh stays home BECAUSE someone needs to be around during the day to feed cats and help mom with her IV.

I told Josh this and his initial response was that the tickets were nonrefundable and, therefore, it's more important that he go.
To some extent, I can understand... I'm asking him to break his plans so I can have mine. And neither one of us may have another chance to do whatever it is we're doing (with Josh, he'll need to stay home more to be around and helpful, especially in the near future. With me.. well, it's rather obvious why.. unless the entire Rochester group comes up to Maryland one day to see me (and probably Kristen), then.. it won't happen.

I want to have a fit. I want to cry. I want to do something besides sit here and be upset, but worse yet.. reasonable. And I can't. God damn me. God fucking damn me for being so... reasonable. I want to be mad at mom, but it's not her fault that she's sick. She'd rather be healthy. I want to be pissed at Josh.. I have more cause here, but I can still sympathize and understand.
Just... God Damn It :p

Edit: OK, thanks to Jen *heroworshiplovelovehugs*, We have a secondary plans... Meet in Buffalo, go to UB, hang there for the afternoon/evening. Dinner... hasn't been fully thought out, but I suggested IHOP since it's something of a tradition when Jen comes into town. And then everyone who wants to can go home Saturday evening/night and I'll have gotten to see most or all of you. It isn't my first choice, but I THINK we can make it work. :)

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I might be able to acquire one before this weekend.