My day has gone to complete shit

[hkellick]

It's been hard enough being one week from moving out of Rochester.
But the last week is going to suck all the more.

Long story short, unless a miracle happens and Josh chooses not to go to NYC this weekend (and is healthy enough to be home and help mom), I can't go to Rochester. No, not even for a daytrip.
Party cancelled. Everyone go home.

Why, you ask? You were looking forward to it? So was I.
Until my mom got home from her infection doctor's appointment today and told me that she'll be on an IV for at least two weeks.
I don't think it registered until an hour later that what that means isn't just that I'll have to be her nursemaid for the rest of the time I'm here (between Josh's schedule and him just being sick), but that I can't go out after all Saturday unless Josh stays home BECAUSE someone needs to be around during the day to feed cats and help mom with her IV.

I told Josh this and his initial response was that the tickets were nonrefundable and, therefore, it's more important that he go.
To some extent, I can understand... I'm asking him to break his plans so I can have mine. And neither one of us may have another chance to do whatever it is we're doing (with Josh, he'll need to stay home more to be around and helpful, especially in the near future. With me.. well, it's rather obvious why.. unless the entire Rochester group comes up to Maryland one day to see me (and probably Kristen), then.. it won't happen.

I want to have a fit. I want to cry. I want to do something besides sit here and be upset, but worse yet.. reasonable. And I can't. God damn me. God fucking damn me for being so... reasonable. I want to be mad at mom, but it's not her fault that she's sick. She'd rather be healthy. I want to be pissed at Josh.. I have more cause here, but I can still sympathize and understand.
Just... God Damn It :p

Edit: OK, thanks to Jen *heroworshiplovelovehugs*, We have a secondary plans... Meet in Buffalo, go to UB, hang there for the afternoon/evening. Dinner... hasn't been fully thought out, but I suggested IHOP since it's something of a tradition when Jen comes into town. And then everyone who wants to can go home Saturday evening/night and I'll have gotten to see most or all of you. It isn't my first choice, but I THINK we can make it work. :)

Comments

[kareila]

Can we come to Buffalo?

[lite.livejournal.com]

We could do it if and only if A) we could find someplace not my house to be able to get together and play such games and B) I were to come home once ina while to do things like feed cats and help mom with her IV. THat's the only way I can see for a Buffalo party to work.
The problem is I can't think of a single location not my house where we could do that.
The only possibility, and I dunno what we could find at short notice MIGHT be to find a hotel room relatively close by that has a big enough floor or central area. And I can't think of where that might be.

[kareila]

Well, your school's nearby, isn't it? Could we use a classroom or something?

[lite.livejournal.com]

You know... we COULD! :)
Yeah, we could get into one of the classrooms that SARPA usually uses and use it for the day and or night.
Maybe we could do an IHOP run too for dinnerthings. It's almost a tradition to :)

You, Miss Jen, are my hero for the day! :)

it'd be a bit awkward, but at least we'd be able to hang and stuff and there'd be plenty of room for our types of games :)

[kareila]

*does the hero dance*

Hopefully carpooling from Rochester won't be a problem... I can take two more (three if they're very friendly or small), don't know about the others.

This can still work. *hugstight*

[lite.livejournal.com]

Nah.. I think between you and, assumedly, Dawn and Oli's Jeep you could get everyone who'd want to go.

Yes, this can still work :) It'll be a little more awkward in Rochester, but it'll be good to be with my friends again :)

*hugstight*

[coderlemming.livejournal.com]

I'm confused, I thought you weren't going to be able to go anyway cause you were in NJ or something.

[lite.livejournal.com]

Read her last LJ. She was planning to, but an uncle will be in town and she feels she needs to stick around unless he wants to get together with her.
So since he leaves late in the week, DK suggested she just head to Rochester instead.. which, as you read here, isn't quite working, but we're working out a secondary plan.

[kareila]

Alana suggested I go to Rochester, since I ended up not being able to leave until Friday. I still could have gone to NJ on Friday, but there wasn't much point by then other than just to see her and Tash for a couple of days, and I can do that any time, really.

So if you still want to go, it looks like I can take you now. Robby and I are crashing at Dawn's place Friday and Saturday nights. I don't think she has room for a third, but someone else might.

Yes, it's getting complicated. Oh well.

[coderlemming.livejournal.com]

Sure, I'll dibs a spot. Just to be flakey, we are talking this friday and saturday, right?

Can anyone reading this give me crash space? I'm small, I fit in closets and under beds, honest.

[kareila]

Yeah, it's this coming weekend.

[lite.livejournal.com]

Do you have an air mattress of some sort? I can't offer a place for obvious reasons, but being equipped with an air mattress will make finding a place to sleep easier.

[coderlemming.livejournal.com]

I might be able to acquire one before this weekend.

[kholnuu.livejournal.com]

I'm on my waaaaaay!!!

[lite.livejournal.com]

Here he comes to save the day! Because Mighty Derek's on his way!
*smirks*