Wait. Who are you again?

[hkellick]

It's been an... interesting week.
I've been trying to talk about it all week, and have just never found quite the right words.
This post is really scattered (and I'm feeling scatterbrained), but I really wanna discuss some of this.


The week started angstily when I bad fight made Kristen and I sit down and look at what we were doing with ourselves and time and realized that... things had stopped working between us again.
Why, you ask, this time?
Because life had been filled with so much.. mundanity. Wake up, shower, no time to even hold each other for more than a few minutes, work for.. a long time, come home exhausted, make dinner, do chores (doing laundry, scooping cat litter, making lunches)... relax for a little bit and then go to sleep.
Day in and day out.
Weekends were jam packed.. mostly mundane stuff... there wasn't even enough time to find to go see Farenheit 9/11, Spiderman 2, I Robot and a bunch of other movies that I, at least, really wanted to see. There wasn't time (or money) to wine K, dine K, and otherwise romance the pants (hopefully literally *nudgenudgewinkwink*) off her.
There wasn't time to be alone and do the alone time thing.
There wasn't time to listen together to "Indian Summer" or to "The Spine"
There wasn't even time to talk the way we used to.. about whatever crossed our minds... the story of the day at work, politics, music.
And so we were drowning in a sea of mundanity and we were both suffering for it.
And that had to stop RIGHT NOW.
And so we sat and talked about how we thought we could battle this and we came up with a few ideas. We seperated out a couple of important points:
1) No alone time. OK, this one was fairly easy to try to make happen.. Kristen is going to SCA today and I went to go see Spiderman 2 yesterday. So she had time alone yesterday and I will today.

2) Kristen needs to go now... yes, Kristen needs to find her own apartment. We both need it. She needs to be able to get comfortable with a situation where we COULD see each other any night we choose, but aren't together ALL THE TIME... and I need to have some period where I don't feel like my daily mundane life is being dominated by a female. To make this happen, Saturdays are out for us time.. she'll go apartment hunting until she finds what she wants. I may go with or I may choose to stay home. We'll probably decide together on Saturday.

3) No time / No time to talk / No time for romance... This one comes down to the first two words, "No Time".
...

No time for a summer friend
No time for the love you send
Seasons change and so did I
You need not wonder why
You need not wonder why
There's no time left for you
No time left for you

Um... yeah, so anyways.. this comes down to how to make the best of the time we have. For that reason, we haven't been on the internet alot. Kristen does better leaving the computer off in the morning.. and there really doesn't feel like there's the time during the weekdays (especially with me coming home about 7:00 now). We need to find time to get the mundanities done, spend alone time, spend romantic together time and let Kristen go apartment hunting.
Needless to say, this is the most difficult point of all and I don't know how well we'll be at this. I'll keep you posted.

So, with all this in mind.. Sunday we decide we want/need to go to the mall.. Kristen needs to look for a suit and I could use some new shirts and pants, we both needs new shoes. Oh, yeah.. new books would be cool too.
So Sunday we drive up to Arundel Mills which is, IMHO, the best damn mall around these parts. (at least, as far as I've been to... that being Plaza at the Capitol, the Greenbelt Plaza Mall, the Laurel Mall, Union Square and the mini-malls at the Inner Harbor.)
We got in so much trouble.. and I don't feel a bit bad for it.
Kristen got suits.. two of them.. one with a long coat and a skirt, one with a short-sleeve coat and pants.. I got two shirts (dark red and french blue), two matching ties and a pair of slacks, we both got shoes and we both left with books... Kristen got a book on same-sex marriage and I got a fantasy book and Michael Moore's "Dude, where's my country?" (For the record.. I don't buy everything Michael Moore says. I think he is definately liberal propoganda.. but I do believe most of what he says.. especially when it comes down to the lies that our president has told and is telling.)
I started reading Michael Moore's book and I do suggest that many of you read it. Especially the liberals in the house. Like I said, I don't believe everything he says... but there was quite a bit that he's uncovered that I didn't know about (since I don't have the time to scan through the numerous papers and media programs the way he does.) and I think the book is interesting.

And that leads us to the last and final topic... the DNC.
Turns out my girlfriend is a Democrat.
OK, wait. I knew that. But turns out my girlfriend is very interested in politics. More than I ever imagined. I know we've talked about alot of things and I know where she stands on many issues, but I don't think I realized how important politics were to her until she begged me to let her watch the DNC on Tuesday.
So.. OK. I don't mind. I wouldn't mind hearing the speeches, by and large. We've already missed the Clintons, which is sad.. but we'd have a chance to see Dean, right?
I'll admit I'm interested in the DNC and the speeches... and it gives me stuff to think about and discuss with my girlfriend, but I think it's come as a little bit of a shocker how INTERESTED she is in Politics.
At least we have something to talk about for a little while. :)

OK... it's 12:30 and I really need to wrap this puppy up. Shame on me for letting this go so long before I had to post and, thus, making yet ANOTHER long post.
At least I hide them behind cuts.

Anyways... off to get some Ice Cream (mmmmm) and go back to work. (Not mmmm).

Love to my political dork.

Comments

[phoenixsong]

Here's the best part: I used to HATE politics. It was all too big, too cumbersome, too far away from anything I dealt with on a regular basis.

Then I went to college. Those sophomores that adopted me freshman year? Big into SUNY budget issues, big into GLBT issues, big into voting, big into AIDS activism, big into arts funding, big into campus & SUNY government and issues.

Big into Ani DiFranco, for whom "political music" becomes an understatement.

A popular history professor ran for U.S. House of Reps (and lost, as a Democrat running with little government funding in a very Republican district).

Talk about learning via immersion. s:)

Politics took something of a backseat for a few years, probably starting around my senior year -- I just wanted to graduate. Then there was the 2000 election, which had me up until after 1am waiting to find out which way Florida was going to go. And then 9/11. I think it was those two, really, that brought it home that no matter how huge and confusing politics seemed, I had to try. I couldn't afford to just let politics slip back into "Things I cared about in college but just got too busy with Real Life (tm) to keep up with afterward."

And I probably wouldn't have picked Geneseo at all if I hadn't spent four years sheltered in a little Catholic high school and decided "OK, this has done me good personally, but I'm ready to deal with something a little bigger and a little more open." All other things being equal, I would have probably ended up at Mercyhurst instead, in this program.

(Wow, that program description is not quite how I remember it being sold to myself and my parents at the time...more like "Comp. Sci., plus")

[lite.livejournal.com]

Mesuspects you don't listen to enough Ani anymore.
Not that *I* have ever heard, in any case, and I live with you.

[phoenixsong]

Which is why I need to go back to custom playlists instead of being lazy and letting iTunes make Smart Playlists of everything. s:)

[lite.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Me too.

Which means you need the time to create a custom playlist instead of being lazy.

And now we're circular.