This feels weird...
May. 16th, 2005 06:15 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hkellickWell, this is it. I leave soon.
I'll be going to a new job. No more Kristen. No more Nick or Scott. No Edie or K.C. or Ebai either.
I might recognize a few people who left PBS&J once upon a time, but not many.
This feels weird.
I don't know if I'll be able to forgive PBS&J. Not yet. The wounds are too fresh and too deep. I may never be able to forgive people like Nick or Kristen for their complicity in that pathetic excuse for a first job. I've told PBS&J what my issues were. Twice. Both to Human Resources and a guy named Gary Guhl (our... THEIR Senior Engineer) who really always felt like a good egg.
Wouldn't it be funny if both of them ended up being excused from PBS&J? Oh, gods, yes.
I wonder if Kristen or Nick would even consider applying to Baker. Heh. That could be interesting.
Alot of What Ifs there, though.
Hey, I just thought of something... I don't feel the need to make this friends only. I don't CARE if they read this. There isn't much they can do to me anymore. They can't fire me. I've already left!
Anyways...
The future few weeks will be.. difficult.
Now.. now is the time I have to sort through all the bullshit decisions, the conflicting advice, all of it.. and figure out what nuggets of information are good and which are pure drivel.
It's terribly tempting to mail Nick once I figure it all out and teach him how to do his job.
Hey, Gary said something I always suspected but never knew.
He admitted that, when the FEMA contract started, they made people supervisors simply because they were there.
When Kristen said that there was a reason Nick was team lead, there was. It was because he was there.
I fucking KNEW it!
So.. yeah.
I'll post when I can to tell you how my day was.
And probably to give PBS& that last "Fuck You" as a year of damage to my ego is peeled away and, hopefully, the real engineer inside me gets to come out and do his job exactly like everyone else, including me.. once, knew he could.
...
That confused me :)
Hasta!
I'll be going to a new job. No more Kristen. No more Nick or Scott. No Edie or K.C. or Ebai either.
I might recognize a few people who left PBS&J once upon a time, but not many.
This feels weird.
I don't know if I'll be able to forgive PBS&J. Not yet. The wounds are too fresh and too deep. I may never be able to forgive people like Nick or Kristen for their complicity in that pathetic excuse for a first job. I've told PBS&J what my issues were. Twice. Both to Human Resources and a guy named Gary Guhl (our... THEIR Senior Engineer) who really always felt like a good egg.
Wouldn't it be funny if both of them ended up being excused from PBS&J? Oh, gods, yes.
I wonder if Kristen or Nick would even consider applying to Baker. Heh. That could be interesting.
Alot of What Ifs there, though.
Hey, I just thought of something... I don't feel the need to make this friends only. I don't CARE if they read this. There isn't much they can do to me anymore. They can't fire me. I've already left!
Anyways...
The future few weeks will be.. difficult.
Now.. now is the time I have to sort through all the bullshit decisions, the conflicting advice, all of it.. and figure out what nuggets of information are good and which are pure drivel.
It's terribly tempting to mail Nick once I figure it all out and teach him how to do his job.
Hey, Gary said something I always suspected but never knew.
He admitted that, when the FEMA contract started, they made people supervisors simply because they were there.
When Kristen said that there was a reason Nick was team lead, there was. It was because he was there.
I fucking KNEW it!
So.. yeah.
I'll post when I can to tell you how my day was.
And probably to give PBS& that last "Fuck You" as a year of damage to my ego is peeled away and, hopefully, the real engineer inside me gets to come out and do his job exactly like everyone else, including me.. once, knew he could.
...
That confused me :)
Hasta!
