I wish...

I wish I had a coat of silk, the color of the sky.
I wish I had a lady fair as any butterfly
I wish I had a house of stone that looked down on the sea
But most of all I wish that I was someone else but me.

I wish I was SuperHoward.
I don't care about being able to jump over tall buildings or flying or dodging bullets at the speed of light.
What I'd really like to do is really HELP people with their problems.

There was a time, not so very long ago, where I thought I was making a real difference in people's lives.
Maybe it was all in my mind. Probably it was, but I felt more THERE for the people in my life than I am now.
Like I could do more for them then hug them and pat their heads and tell them that I was there for them and that everything would work out.

But that's all I can do. At least now.
Around me, everyone has their own set of problems.
Bad problems.

The only thing I can do is be myself and be there.
But... neither of those is enough to solve anyone else's problems.
I'm not even sure what sort of real help, if any, that is.
Hell, neither of those is enough to solve my own problems.
*sigh*